Are you a single woman over 50 who finds being single in today’s superficial world a challenge? Do you feel happy with who you are but wish you had someone in your life? If that’s you, I can relate.
Caveat – This is not for those who are single by choice. This is for those of us who face another valentines day alone and wish it wasn’t that way. Feelings are neither right nor wrong, they just are. I am not focusing on this or stewing over this so please don’t think I need some healing or relationship help or coaching. I love myself and I have no men issues. I have to put that out there because if I don’t I will be contacted by several people that want to help me get past my issues. I simply am sharing where I am right now and at a point in time.
I have talked with many women my age and based on those conversations, I know I’m not the only woman who feels this way. I thought I would share some humorous and heartfelt insights in hopes it will help someone else experiencing this.
So here we are, another Valentines Day. Time to see all the commercials about love, all the ads about gifts and everything else about love and relationships. The Bachelor series is in their 21st season of people putting themselves out there on TV to find love. There are also other shows like the Bachelorette, Bachelor in Paradise and many other find love shows. Why do those succeed? In my opinion it’s because people still believe in love and the hopes of finding love no matter what your age. So we like to watch and hope that person finds lasting love even though we know in those circumstances the odds are against them. In fact there have been very few that have actually stayed together much beyond the “final rose.”
If you are over 50 and single, you may not be thrilled about seeing those commercials or shows because they don’t apply to you. There is no one that will bring you roses or jewelry or candy on that day or any other day (unless it’s you or a friend or family member, of course, but this isn’t about that).
Some people say statistically that the odds are not in our favor at finding love at our age. I understand that but based on where I came from, the odds were against me at succeeding and I beat those odds so I believe anything is possible if you have faith and never give up.
I think for me, the hardest part is sitting in a group and hearing people celebrating how many years they’ve been married as if my being divorced makes it a seem like the biggest failure on the planet. When I was married we didn’t have a great connection. He put me down a lot and I didn’t show him much love and affection. The more he put me down, the less love I showed. It was a vicious cycle that ended in divorce and hurt my kids. If I knew then what I know now… We were the wrong 2 people to get together but if we hadn’t I wouldn’t have the 2 amazing offspring that I have today.
As of today it’s been more than a decade since someone told me they loved me (other than close friends or kids). I’ve dated off and on in hopes of finding someone but have more nightmare experiences than good ones. I actually did a humorous speech for a Toastmasters speech contest about my experiences sometime back and won many levels of the contests. Here are some of those stories to make you laugh. Can you relate? These are all true and have not been embellished. You can’t make some of this stuff up.
These are only a few of the many stories I have. I am sure you have many of your own if you have been dating in today’s superficial microwave photoshopped world.
Then there are the other problems; if I’m on some dating sites, I can’t keep the 20 and 30 something’s away from me. I get dozens and dozens of them contacting me despite the fact that my profile says “young enough to be my son = I’m not interested.” I am not exaggerating when I say dozens. That doesn’t work for me nor does the old enough to be my father group. I’m interested in someone my own age that experienced life at the same time I did, at the same age. I’m not willing to be someone’s cougar experience.
Many of those my age who are successful don’t want me because they want the younger hotter version to show off to their friends, make himself feel younger or whatever the reason is. Many of them do not last and they go onto the next one. I’ve been told more times than I can count I’m not their type, when I ask what their type is they say younger than you, you’re too old. Mind you this is from someone my age.
It’s all very superficial and it seems the over 50 woman is stuck in limbo with all of this. Sure we can find someone to sleep with but someone to be committed to is another story. I am sure the other age groups have similar situations. I am focusing on the over 50 group because that’s where I am. I am not complaining here, only stating my experiences.
There was a great guy that I dated for 3 months but he died in a skydiving accident and there were some other complicated things regarding him that I didn’t find out until after he died. Despite those things, I had a wonderful time with him. He was a gentleman and enjoyed spending time with me. We had a lot in common, too.
Since he died, I have not been on a date. There was one man that I was interested in and I think at one time he was interested in me but since I seem to be a bit inept in letting someone know I’m interested in them (yes I am working on this now), I think I gave him the signal that I wasn’t interested so he never pursued anything with me and that opportunity was unfortunately lost.
Some of my friends have encouraged me to go “have a fling” in order to get my energy going or something like that. I thought about it for a minute. While that’s ok for some people and used to be the way I rolled, it isn’t in alignment with my values today. I believe that a soul connection happens when 2 people have sex. I have heard it referred to as a “soul tie” where your souls are tied and connected. I did a significant amount of work on myself to break all the ties and heal from all the trauma from my past and I don’t want to connect with someone who I don’t know or isn’t in alignment with my values. I’m not making anyone else wrong for doing that. I’m saying that doesn’t work for me.
Many consider that point of view to be old fashioned, out dated or just plain stupid. I can understand why God’s plan for marriage is not to have multiple partners. I’ve been told there’s something wrong with me for not doing it or looked down on. That’s ok; I think I would feel bad about myself if I compromised my values. I don’t want to go back to that place where I once was. I didn’t love that person. I love the person I am today and want to still love me tomorrow. I did many things I’m not proud of and wish I could take back. I know they made me who I am and all that but I could still be that person without some of those things.
So with all this negativity how does one survive? I have to admit sometimes it’s a challenge to go to sleep alone and the negative thoughts want to take over but the important part is to focus on what you do have and not what you don’t have. What you focus on expands. So if you focus on the negative, you will be stuck in the negative. If you focus on being alone, you will remain alone. If you focus on the fact that you have no money, success or whatever you are negatively focusing on, you will expand that in your life. You will reap what you sew. In the end I know God will bless me greatly in his time. My job is to focus on the good things I have and be grateful.
In keeping with the positive and being grateful, here is my gratitude list for today:
As I am writing that list I feel good inside reflecting on it. If you feel down about being alone and like you will never find someone and you are doomed to walk the planet a lonely woman, do a pattern interrupt. A pattern interrupt is something to break the pattern you are in and replace it with something else. You have to break that cycle of negativity and replace it with positive and upbeat thoughts. Here are some suggestions to change those thoughts to something more positive.
Doing these things or some other me time activity will help you expand your focus to positive things. Being positive on the inside will show on the outside. Men will be attracted to that. Then you have to get out and meet people. This is where I have had problems and need to fix it. One of my friends was trying to get me out of my hibernation shell recently. It made me realize that’s the one thing I’m not doing. I’m hiding out and not meeting people. If I expect to be blessed with someone, I have to go places where I can meet him. I am making a commitment to doing that so I can activate that part of me that has been in hibernation too long. Special thanks to my friend (if you are reading this, you know who you are) who won’t let me hide out and hibernate and has given me that nudge to get back that part of me that has been dormant for way too long.
I know this was a bit long but I felt like someone other than me is feeling this way and needed to feel that they aren’t alone. Even if only 1 person reads this, I know I have helped someone. I know I was supposed to write this for someone to read. If that is you, I hope it helped. If you know someone who could use this or enjoy this, pass it on. If you have your own story, share it here.
This Valentines day and every day thereafter, love yourself first, that’s the most important person to show love to. If you don’t have anyone to spend that day with, do something nice for yourself to let yourself know that you are loved.
To Your Success!